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I’m not the me from 3 months ago

I sometimes just want to write exactly what I’m thinking like a stream of consciousness. I’m having one of those times now. I just feel philosophical and reflective. To say the last couple of months have been eventful would be putting it bluntly. As tough as the time has been for me I feel stronger …

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Broken (Biscuit Poem)

Imperfectly excluded from their own packets. A second chance looms in a place with other ones. Perfectly included in a community. Repackaged within a box of broken biscuits. Life’s mistakes. Broken bakes. Cardboard box. Lots in stock.

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How things are and how they are going

I am getting back on my feet. I’m looking into getting a flat of my own. I’m very excited about that prospect. I mean, I am currently living in a house that I can ill-afford between two neighbours who I can only say have a strange, strong dislike of me for whatever reason. I’m surrounded …

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Progress!

I am making progress. I have become lazy recently when it comes to housework but today I had a massive blitz. All my washing is done, ironed and put away. Same with my washing up. It feels good to be productive again. The last mental meltdown was six days ago. I’m happy that it’s been …

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Moment to Moment

We need to pay respects to everything. The chance that everything around us has come together to create that moment as we perceive it to be is mind-blowing. There is nothing wrong in ritual as long as it isn’t detrimental to anyone or anything. Moment to moment, we cease to exist. Each second that passes …

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Seeing the ups and downs

I write this in bed. I feel obliged to write because I didn’t post anything yesterday. I had a weird day yesterday. I had a day of ups and downs today and it’s not been fun. However, as I mentioned before, when I’m lucid I “build a strong foundation” for when I’m feeling down. Although …

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Lucid in the sky with diamonds

I’ve been feeling really good today. I feel positive and as though things are actually going alright. It’s at these times that I do what I can to build a strong foundation for myself when I’m not feeling good. It’s like I’m also my carer for when I’m down. I’ve set up a few triggers …

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This too shall pass

Having written yesterday about how I need to remember the phrase “THIS TOO SHALL PASS” I have felt grounded. It’s an anchor and there have been times today when I’ve felt a wobble here and there. It’s great to feel it. I need to pay attention to all the philosophy stuff that I have read …

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